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* * 讓 我 想 你 吧 * *

一份真心　一份執著
我們的感情不迷路
我們的緣分不孤獨

一個期許　一個祝福
我們的過去有溫暖的回憶
我們的未來有幸福的味道

第一千零一的夜晚
就讓我想你吧

如果還有什麼　
那一定是　 你


* * 唱 一 首 歌 給 自 己 聽 * *

唱一首歌給自己聽
沒有好不好 對不對 合不合
只有心情的節拍伴奏著
只有時間的旋律哼唱著

唱一首歌給自己聽
走音也好 忘詞也吧
歌聲中的情感依然不變

我想
聽你唱一首　 歌



* * 渡 口 * *

時間的寶盒
有著許多的記憶
久違的心情
透露許多秘密

想一個人獨處
又怕太寂寞
想溶入人群
又找不到渡口

嗨，你的心在家嗎？
可否借躲一下


* * 遲 到 * *

我們遇見過許多人
卻總是錯過許多事
得到許多經驗
卻失去了某些感覺

回到原點
找回遺忘的記憶
整理思緒
沉澱錯亂的過去

如果還有明天
期待　
再　 相遇



* * 過 與 錯 * *

青春 是幸運的符號
繁華虛夢
誰都可以曾經擁有

時間 是殘酷考驗
失去了平衡
誰都無法挽留什麼

一個人的甜蜜不想與誰分享
兩個人的愛情卻不屬於我們
三個人的世界終究不能成行..

改變的是心境
還是　 我們



* * 擁　抱 * *

張開的雙手
不知道適合的尺度
觸摸的感覺
握不住兩人的溫度

情人式的擁抱是這樣子的嗎？
心中留下的印記
怎麼也無法確定
少了個你
戲， 該如何演不下去？



* * 西 風 的 話 * *

西風 吹亂了秋天的步調
落葉 散落了一地的心情
橘子色的天空， 有著酸酸甜甜的味道...
現在的你在做些什麼？
正聽著悠揚的音樂， 看著一本好書，
和三五好友話家常， 還是一個人看著遠方？
書本裡的那片楓葉， 有許多的心情與幻想
心裡離我最近的那個位置
..... 只想留給你。

on the 6th month

since 15th April 2005, 5 months passed..

i closed one case on the eve of Mid Autumn Festival :)
rejoice! happy! excited!
at last i manage to convince a client to make a decision which benefit himself and his family.

the client asked whether my service is good, sounds like there are more family members they want to introduce to me if they find me good.
i'm so happy to hear this word from them... feel that that's what colleagues normally said about 'refer list'

sincere wish from the bottom of my heart.. i can stay in this industry long and serve more people... with their trust, with their support... i can carry on, i can succeed and serve more...

the more i give, the more i get...
i really wish this career which heping people and at the same time helping myself can stay long, just like my role model...

may dear Lord bless me and accompany me along this way.. Amen

4 mths passed

since 15th April 2005, 4 months passed..

what did i archive? ... nothing much...
what did i learn? ... alot... but not all been applied...
did i did what i've planned to do? ... not really...
did i upset those who look high on me? ... maybe, but hope i won't upset them too long...
do i want to continue to be like this? ... OF COURSE NOT...
what i afraid of? ... afraid of talking the first step...
what i lack of? ... confident, proactive, braveness & more...

i do not want to continue be like this, i hate this kind of ME.
i want call back the one of I, who is confident, dare to take challenge, cheerful & with all positive thinking.

people are highly look at me when i'm confident and capable..
but why i'm returning those people with such a result?? i hate this kind of feeling.

when can i overcome all these? when will the real ME come back?

pray hard and may i will do what i suppose to do, and not like now....

don't leave me alone

A: Why is everyone leaving me behind?
B: You're not alone, I'll be there with you

When a lot of colleagues leaving, those who stays wil have the same feeling that why everyone leaving except me??

* Two possible reaction, one is leave together or stay...

* Two possible result if stay, one is demoralized or manage to overcome...

* One possible ending if feel demoralized, never get things done.

* Infinite possibilities if you manage to overcome.. you will never know how much you can gain from your positive thinking!

For those who give courage and support, you are the one who called himself blessed! :)

kopi-c of the day

bought a kopi-c after my lunch, this is not the coffee + milk which i use to drink before.. it's so bitter :( I guess I still not yet reach the stage that prefer bitter coffee or tea :p
I think should be a good sign.. why I said so.. it's because one of my best friend told me before that, when one person get older, he/she will prefer the drink with less sugar, or maybe prefer bitter drink... hmm...
Since I still cannot take the bitter drink, it means I still not yet reach that stage of the age, hahahaha :">

Opinion - give or not give?

i told dzz that i do not know how to make up my mind.. whether to let go my current job, and try the new job with a totally new area...

i told him that i wish to try while i still young, although there's no definite succeed or failure, but at least i try... it's always the better to try while still young instead of while i have a lot of commitment while getting older... but of course, i have worries...
i wish to get encouragement from others. so, when i heard some voices that not quite agree with my 'potential decision', i start to worry whether my decision is good..? although i know there's no guarantee on good or bad decision, it's all depend how much effort i put in...

i wish to listen to his opinion.. but he seems not going to give me his opinion.. it's within my expectation. because he is always listen to my words, seldom help me to decide something which is related to my career... is it because he doesn't want to affect my decision? is it because he trust me that i will make up my own decision in the end? or is it because he worry that his opinion is a pressure to me?

in fact, i didn't directly ask him for his opinion too... i thought i just need to tell him my problem, if he has, he will tell; if he don't, then no point asking him... is this his problem that not giving opinion, or my problem that not asking and cause he misunderstand that i do not 'need' his opinion?? i really don't know.

set a target... and go for it...

after the kick-off seminar on 20th Jan 2005, there's something in my mind...
i have the passion to set my target and go for it.. but i do not know can i make it??
do i need to think that much? should i just go ahead and try my best?
i wish i can achieve it, i wish i can succeed.. i wish to prove myself that i can make it.. and i wish to prove to others that i didn't let them down as they are having high expectation on me..

is the high expectation that give me courage or pressure?
i hope it will be a courage :P
i need to plan for myself.. i need to do a well planning.. mentally and physically..

do i really need to let go one thing before i take up another?
can't i manage both of them at the same time? am i capable to handle both well enough?
i do not have the answer... and i wish someone can give me an answer... maybe is God...
what is God's plan to me, i do not know now.. but i wish to know.. i wish to get some hint in order for me to go on without fear, but courage...

相信

当他人不相信你“能”时
你必须相信自己一定办得到
当他人取笑你的梦想时
你必须相信梦想因决心而实现
当你抱着谦卑及坚强的心面对事情
必会有不一样的人生

* year 2004 *

my dream @ my thought

i'm dreaming... dream of my life
..dream of a holiday
..dream of mountain, sea and rainbow
..dream of moonlight, tiny stars and gentle breeze

i'm thinking... think of my life
..think of my direction
..think of the mission assigned to me
..think of my dreams

without stress.. without worry..
without guessing.. without fighting..
without unfaithfulness.. without suspiciousness..

full of love.. care.. joy..
full of laughter.. warm hug.. encouragement..

Dear Lord...
bless the kids ~ ~
bless the world ~ ~
bless our thought ~ ~
bless our heart ~ ~

责任

一个二十刚出头、刚注册结婚的年轻女孩对我说：
“找工作不再那么容易，我现在的 Marital Status 已不再是 Single，我要考虑的东西很多；工作压力不可以太大，不然无法兼顾家庭；压力太大也会影响怀孕的机会。。。”

我心想，真是难为她了。对一个二十多岁的她来说，真是好辛苦。至少对我而言，这样的责任似乎来得太早。
若是说这责任是在原生家庭上，就不能说什么，因为那毕竟是自己成长的地方。但是，她现在的责任却是在自己选择的新家庭。她甚至已经考虑到自己的下一代了！

我问自己，若我是她，我会怎么办？
我没有直接的答案。我唯一的想法是，我不会让这样的婚姻来得那么早。到目前为止，我还不至于为了这样的负担而把自己的理想割舍。我想，我是幸运的，至少我不必在那种年龄做如此的决定；也幸运的，没有让我遇到得放弃理想的考验吧！

人各有志，我不是她，我不身在她的处境、我没有与她一样的机遇，所以我无法把我的想法倾注在她身上。我也无法极力劝她追求自己的理想。唯有希望每一个人的人生机遇都能欣然被接收，并勇敢的去面对。

压力留在车厢外

好累好累
似乎承受了好大的压力
面对顾客的不停止的修改
绞尽脑汁的去说服，以便减少不必要的修改
似乎已把平日三天说的话，在几小时内耗尽
放下听筒，把一壶的开水一饮而尽
离开座位，让自己暂时逃离
再也无法继续工作，感到精疲力尽。。。

乘搭地铁回家去，疲惫的身躯仍不散
自身站在车厢内，静静看着人群进出
一站一站的经过，渐渐感觉轻松一些

原来，每一站的稍停歇
在开门与关门之间
我的压力也跟着一点一点的释放
在经过的每一站，把压力在门关上前留在外头
我知道当我回到家时，不再有委屈烦躁的心情
因工作的压力已懈下，一颗心是轻松且愉快的

那么，留在月台上的重担怎么办呢？
一阵阵的风会把它吹散
空调也会把废气过滤排除
今天就把压力留在车厢外吧！


写于15.04.2004 11:55pm