since 15th April 2005, 4 months passed..
what did i archive? ... nothing much...
what did i learn? ... alot... but not all been applied...
did i did what i've planned to do? ... not really...
did i upset those who look high on me? ... maybe, but hope i won't upset them too long...
do i want to continue to be like this? ... OF COURSE NOT...
what i afraid of? ... afraid of talking the first step...
what i lack of? ... confident, proactive, braveness & more...
i do not want to continue be like this, i hate this kind of ME.
i want call back the one of I, who is confident, dare to take challenge, cheerful & with all positive thinking.
people are highly look at me when i'm confident and capable..
but why i'm returning those people with such a result?? i hate this kind of feeling.
when can i overcome all these? when will the real ME come back?
pray hard and may i will do what i suppose to do, and not like now....
